The Project

December 29, 2009

We just watched Julie & Julia, and it makes me realize I really need a project, and as much as I would like it, a boy is not a workable project. So my project is still undecided but it's something that will become. My mother's tombstone unveiling is tomorrow and I am dreading it completely. I am sure there will be people there who are going to ask me lots of questions, and frankly I just don't do well with those questions. The boy that was helping a lot has somewhat disappeared, and I feel bad saying it, but it's true, he has. We discussed it, but there is just a few speed bumps right now, so we are working on it. New Year's Eve will be interesting, I will be bringing my older cousin, and my two younger cousins to be with me to a party. The Support Group, as always, bothers me. I know it's supposed to be helpful, but all it does is agitate me, which helps nothing. In the uproar of anger that I was in the other day, I pulled apart my bedframe, I cannot say I did it single handed, I had my brother help me, but it was done without alerting my father, I don't think he was to thrilled. I am re-doing my bedroom. It is not large enough to be the project I am looking for, but it is a start. I plan on learning to cook in the year of 2010, and I hope to figure out where I am headed, because even though I love people, the walls I have up are making for a lot of unwanted stress. Have a safe and happy New Year.