Eloise

For those of you who don't know, my first car was a white Ford Explorer that we named Bruce. Bruce is very old and yesterday we sold him, well traded him in. We swapped him out for a black Honda Fit that we just named Eloise. She is perfect, she is small like me, and she is just wonderful. But I do miss Bruce, I cried when I gave over the keys.

On a separate note, my mothers sisters are planning a vacation for us girls. I am going to be careful how I word this because they read this.
Lately I have been having a hard time, for no reason in particular, but I am finding it hard for me to want to be apart of this trip, when I know this was something my mother always wanted us to do. I would have a wonderful time and I do not doubt that, but I would not like being there without her, and I am trying to figure out how to be apart of it, because I want to be. I want to be apart of her side, I want to have that connection, but I see her in them, and it makes it hard for me to be there. I do love them all with my entire heart, but I am unsure about everything right now...

New topic? OK! Well The Boy is The Boy, it is so unnerving to talk to him, I just want to yell at him most of the time. I don't I act like a perfect lady. But one of my friends from school, Kelsey, is trying to come out here and surprise me for my birthday. I know it doesn't sound like much of a surprise when I know about it, but it won't happen, so if it does it will be a HUGE surprise.

I love my aunts, I love my cousins, I love my entire family.

xoxo
Piri