I just like knowing the ending...

Well it's 2011! For a few days into the new year I said I was going to be a hippie, that lasted a dreadlock and a few days. I love free will ways, but I also love my Coach purse (which my wonderful father surprised me with in NYC). Speaking on NYC I just got home on Sunday from Grandma's 80th Birthday Bash! we had a lot of fun, I really enjoyed seeing all my wonderful cousins.
I have 128 days until graduation. I am very nervous to say the least, Northeastern University is my dream, and even though I was deferred to regular decision, I'm not giving up.
Prom is basically ready, I have my dress and I've begone the appointments. As upperclassmen the senior and junior classes are going to Costa Rica so thats exciting...what else what else?
OH! We are probably getting a new puppy and that is very exciting.
Well I suppose I have stalled long enough...
I got some tough information at the beginning of this year, I'm still not sure how I am taking it, but it is really difficult losing trust in someone who means so much to you. There are always people in your life that you just assume are telling you the truth, and will always tell you the truth, and when you find out there have been multiple lies, it hurts. A lot. I have fully recognized that I have not dealt with my mother's death, I have barely touched on it. I see her face all over, I don't actually think she's dead. If she were here though she would make my life a whole lot easier, she was definitely one of my very best friends, and I miss her more everyday because there are so many things I want to talk to her about, she would cushion the blow for when I'd talk to dad. But life is life, I've had to grow up a lot in the past few years, I had one great semester of high school, I made great grades, and I worked hard, I'm proud. There are so many things that I wanted to say, I just can't remember them now. I know, that no matter what, I am wonderful, no matter how fat I am haha.
Speaking of being fat, I am going to the gym very often, I am determined to lose 20 pounds before prom. Who knows how well that will go. There is a lot I don't know, and I am not afraid to say that, I just wish I was able to know the ending. I think that's why I like re-watching movies, I like to know the ending.
Well I think that is it for today, hope every one is having a phenomenal 2011!
xoxo
Piri