Steve.

The thingy on my head is gone! we named it Steve, it was gross. Babs, the wonderful nurse, gave me a bajillion shots into my head so the actual procedure didn't hurt, but those shots sucked! Uncle Jeff and Daddy were great. They made sure I took slow even breaths, even though I really wish mom had been there, they did a good job. Plus Dr. Patel was so good he didn't even have to shave my head!

So in case you haven't heard, me and my best guy friend are gonna go to prom. It'll be so fun. I won't dress about looking ridiculously good, and since he's my bestie, he won't try to feel me up.

I am right now sitting in the airport getting ready to board my flight to go see my amazing godmother/aunt/rafiki, KATHE! and her wonderful children. I wish my aunt Traci was going to be there, but she is with her grandmother Muz, and I am sending her all the love and energy I have. So in going to see my aunt Kathe there is one thing I am slightly worried about. Kathe has some of mom's ashes...I am worried I'll be creeped out by them.

Well my flight is boarding, hope everyone wears something green today!

Some of my favorite quotes

"anyone can give up, its the easiest thing in the world to do, but to hold it together when everyone would understand if you fell apart, now that's true strength"

"At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So, you can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines... that are way too dangerous to cross."

“Rivers know this: there is no hurry. We shall get there some day.”

“If you live to be 100, I hope I live to be 100 minus 1 day, so I never have to live without you.”

“Promise me you'll never forget me because if I thought you would I'd never leave.”

"in a world where you can be anything, be yourself"

"I wish my mom would have told me the same thing about guys as she did about horror movies... don't worry, they're all fake."

"All men are created equal. No matter how hard you try, you can never erase those words." Harvey Milk

"I believe in pink, and I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day, and i believe in miracles." -Audrey Hepburn

"I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think,all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read,and all the friends I want to see." John Burroughs

Birthday!

Today my baby brother turned 11. I remember the day he was born so clearly. My aunt Kathe was in for his birth. His due date was March 11th, but since Tyler and I were born on full moons, Kathe decided Jackson would be born on the 3rd and she would leave the 11th. And since Kathe willed it, it happened, he was born underwater at the birthing center in Seattle, Washington. I know mom would have loved to be here, but she made it to his 10th, so she got to see the double digits.

So today after school I went to the gym. I weighed my self after my work out and I was utterly disgusted with the number. I will not say what it was because it is just to horrible to write down, it made me cringe. I now plan to follow a strict diet, of sleep, healthy eating, and exercise.

Here's how I am towards The Boy, "No matter how many times I get hurt because of you, I won't leave you. Because even if I have 100 reasons to leave you, I'll look for that 1 reason to fight for you."
This pretty much sums it up to a T. He can be the biggest ass to me, and I'll still keep him around, and it's because he is my familiar face that brightens my day and makes me smile. I hate it. I hate what he does to me. I'm really hating a lot of things lately.

I knit. I think I am becoming a bitter old lady.

Go clean something. Just kidding.